Few days ago i had just finished my final exam that had been defered..
On that day soon after i finish my exam, my mum called me. We had a terrible arguement between me and my mum due to the study problems...
and afterward my sister join into our arguement too..
make me feel so tired of everything.....
it is such a pain that having arguement with them..
cause as well as i grow up, getting old... i start to feel like i should spend more time with my family and be a more responsible man, and promise myself shouldnt grow and become my dad...but i couldnt....
in fact, my dad didnt really do anything that affect me these years.. it may because of those years that im living in Perth without seeing them....
Well that is not the main point that i wanna write abt.. Years passing out and this yr im gonna be 21...i feel so embrassing and shame that im still studying yr 1.. not a really general year 1, diploma... seems like it is still gonna takes me this whole year to finish it.. my family start to scream and mad at me..
Honestly i perfertly understand the situation of my family and my study progress, im sorry for them..they have been working so hard to supporting me and i know im such an idiot that still hanging around with my own study..
but what can i do man... im working and studying at the same time, i know im lazy but i have already changed a lot compare with before... seriously i dun like study, i swear that even i finish the university in perth, it is still not gonna affect anything and my decisions for my future.. of course i will learn more knowledge and able to think widely, but i believe that study and books wont bring any future for me if im not gonna be working in any professional jobs such as accountant, engineer...etc. i wanna do business, business is nothing to do with books and study grad... business is all about relationship, technical skill, communication and management method... In the world, only have 2 kinds of people, its either being a boss or worker
I swear to god that im not going to sit in a boring place and work for the rest of my life
and im not interested nor qualify for professional jobs too.
why dont u go employ those professional people to work for u instead of you being those people??
Studying is just a protection that guarantee yourself will have a job to work,
and im sorry my dream aint like em' my family just dont get it...keep scold me ... hai....30-1-2009 ...wat a fuking day.. | 